Building the New.

This encapsulates my life philosophy. I genuinely believe that my efforts are best placed in creating new 'stuff'. Be it thoughts, people, ideas, relationships, habits etc etc. I have never described myself as creative, but it turns out that I am! I only want to create new 'systems'. It thrills me. I think that is why the complex and completely meaningful relationships in my house fascinate me so much.

Anyway, during a conversation about school choices, I had these thoughts and things to say about what is going with us 5 at the moment.

Here is what I wrote. I wrote this to a friend, before I decided it would be a blog post so it is as honest as it gets!

Enjoy!

"Hey, So, which one did they choose? I'm dying to know! I used to work in all of them many moons ago.

They made a really big decision and it sounds like they have been empowered by the experience. It reminds me of me! When I was that age I had the choice of going to Bedford Academy (John Bunyan as it was) or Dame Alice (now merged with Bedford Modern but still a private school). I chose Dame Alice because even thought there was an exam and I would be going completely alone, it was still a safer, more predictable, more academic choice.

If I had gone to John Bunyan with my 'friends' I cannot even begin to imagine the different route my life would have taken.

It still wasn't easy and there were still mornings when my mum would have to sit in the car with me outside school and wait for me to stop crying and calm down enough to actually go in! But, go in I did, most of the time.

I switched again for my 'A' Levels to go to Sharnbrook. Now that transition was far from easy. I was back among all the kind of people who bullied me in my middle school!

{I edited out two paragraphs for privacy.}
We seem to be pretty busy. I'm not coping well with it but we are doing it! We have never had so many organised activities (4 per week) and trying to fit in 'quality' time is more difficult because I have so much more to do. Trying to get them all to comply and enjoy is hard going!

Dominik has a wobble every week at parkour. He has a meltdown within the first hour every week guaranteed. It is heartbreaking but he hasn't given up yet and is just beginning to see an improvement so I honeslty hope he decides to keep it up after half term. Feels like a test!

Hannon is coding his own video games which improve by the day! It is incredible to watch and he surpassed what I had learned in less than 24 hours!! He has taken to it like a duck to water. He has about 5 different pieces of game making software on his pc but this is the first one that has really worked for his learning style. So, after about 4 months of trial and error (and money!) he has finally found his niche...and it was free! lol [ETA - He is even drawing all of his own pictures which is a first as he doesn't even voluntarily write with a pencil. Whilst the rest are drawing, he has always resolutely refused. Until now! He is experimenting with drawing on the computer and even 3D drawing like he never could in real life. I think he has overcome a big fear in doing this. He even said he thinks he might start trying with a pencil in the future. I am so proud of him taking charge of what works for him. Lily has even let him borrow her graphics tablet in case he wants to try with a pen.]

Lily is reading like a pro! She is just flying through it now and she is even asking to learn Spanish! We wrote down all the ways I could think of to say 'I love you' in different languages last night. It was great fun, 

Although, to coincide with Lily's rapid developmental spurt, we have also had a complete regression to the aggression and violence.

I have come to accept that it is the price we pay for big leaps. It puts a lot of stress on her system and she falls apart a little at the seams. We're all doing our best to support her..well, except Hannon who mostly wants to torment her a little more. Grrr.

And Harriet! She is awesome. Teeth 9 and 10 on their way. Crawling brilliantly (although more of a drag than a crawl...think legless zombie!) and she has just started cruising the furniture! I had forgotten how scary this bit is but she is doing marvellously and takes the odd tumble with grace and humour! She can almost stand unaided and she is learning fast how to fall onto her bum! She is also loving any food you give her to try. Thanks goodness! I do not have time to cook yet another meal! She loves being wrapped and even tolerates my failures and re-wrappings with fun (that is, if you call having your ears bitten at all 'fun').

Me, well, I'm exhausted and was on the edge for a few days. My mum stepped in and gave me an afternoon last week which was my first one since Harriet was born. That is 8 months! So, well, it was great and I am ok now.

Well, now I've bored you with an essay (sorry) I'm going to blog it in an adapted form if that is ok with you? I won't mention you by name but I will say how the blog came about.

PS - Thanks for asking how we are. You'd be amazed how few people actually do and I sometimes forget that great things are going on here, even when I am too exhausted to fully appreciate it all. Being able to write it down really helps.

Big hugs xxxxx" So, there you have it. That's a short summary of how we are all building and creating in my house! Sorry I haven't blogged sooner. It's been a bit busy! I'm glad a friend helped me to make the time to blog today.

N x PS - I did my hair!

It's been four weeks! Time flies when there's a newborn in the house!

So, Harriet Amelia Mae arrived via scheduled c-section (at 39 weeks gestation), on February 20th 2015, at 10.12am weighing in at a super dinky, 6lb 14oz.

We are now four weeks into our new life as a five-some and I have to say, so far so good!

As some of you will remember, I was terrified at the prospect of a c-section, so, I went all Aspie-on-its-arse!

I researched the subject until I was satisfied (read; exhausted/blue in the face) that I had enough tools at my disposal to facilitate a speedy and effective recovery. I simply could not bear the thought of being out of action with my lot for up to six weeks (with no driving) with a new baby in the house too! No way Jose!

So, in case it is useful to anyone, here is what I learned about surgery, c-sections and effective recovery broken down into the various categories. I will try my best not to forget anything because I think I have made an almost miraculous recovery!

Homeopathy

• Arnica
• Aconite
• Bellis Perennis
• Staphisagria

Essential Oils

• Lavender
• Geranium
• Tea Tree Oil

Herbs

• Fenugreek
• Alfalfa

Supplements

• Papaya Enzyme Extract, 
• Serrapeptase
• L-Glutamine
• ProBiotics 
• Chlorella

Vitamins

• Vitamin C
• Iron
• Multivitamin

Meditation

Positive Affirmations

Medical Equipment

• Theraline C-Section Recovery Belt
• Girdle

Food/Nutrition

• Fibre rich
• High protein
• Whole grain
• Fresh
• Organic

Extras!

• Miso instant cup-a-soup
• Nuts, seeds, dried fruit
• Granola Bars
• Green & Black's chocolate
• Peppermint Tea
• Bach Peppermint Rescue Remedy Gum
• Senekot
• Ibuprofen
• Paracetamol
• Something to relieve wind but I can't remember what it was called!
• Placenta Capsules 

I hope that is useful to someone! And as always, please don't hesitate to get in touch if you have any questions.

Here is a picture of my beautiful baby girl at four weeks old. Please excuse her blue mouth...I have been treating her oral thrush with gentian violet 1% and it turns everything bluish/purple!

Thanks for reading, as always,

N x

Thinking about Senses.

Tonight, (Monday 6th October 2014)I was lucky enough to attend an excellent presentation about the sensory issues often faced by children on the Autistic Spectrum. It was delivered by Jo Dorasamy (whose blog can be found here: Family Life with ASD ) from The Avenue (whose website can be found here:The Avenue ). A massive congratulations to Jo for doing a great job.

I think that what I enjoyed most about the evening, was the feeling of recognition I experienced when meeting other parents who live within special needs families. (Non-muggles as my very dear friend Emma D would say). Us ‘non-muggle’ parents seem to share a sense of community that goes beyond words and joins us together at a more intuitive, compassionate level.

Just the thought that there other families out there whose houses are strewn with sensory toys, tools and activities is so comforting! I often try to imagine what the insides of other people’s houses must look like when they have children whose needs are not dissimilar to those of my own children. Well, now I know! Pretty much the same if the ‘props’ supplied by Jo and Sarah for the exhibition are anything to go by!

So, just to mention as few of the things that really stood out for me.

The sitting aids – see-saw chairs, fidget pads, weighted blankets, slanted lap tables and the spectacular spinning egg chair.But think about it, if a child needs this much assistance to simply be comfortable, how on Earth can we ever be anything other than in total awe at what they achieve? The things we take for granted as people with neurotypical senses (well, almost in my case) is astounding to me. Imagine if you could not regulate your spatial awareness? Imagine if simply not being able to sit in a chair ruined your ability to concentrate? The amount we ask from these children is massive and they all deserve a pat on the back for not going stark raving loopy more often!

The hearing aids and the visual aids for hyper sensitivities – ear defenders, sunglasses, hats, hoodies, lava lamps, kaleidoscopes and flashing, hand-held lights. Just brilliant! I know from experience that when the world is too loud and too bright and too fast-moving, the little people fall apart extremely quickly. The sensory overload is so massive that their brains simply cannot filter out the ‘small stuff’ as neurotypical brains can. The stress on the child (in all ways - emotional, sensory, psychological, mental) is overwhelming and more often than not a meltdown will follow this sensory overload. Knowing how to lessen the ‘small stuff’ is the key. Paying attention to how your child reacts to these issues will 100% guarantee a happier child and subsequently, a happier family life.

The importance of having a full sensory assessment by a trained Occupational Therapist was also a key theme to the evening. Like Jo, I too paid for a private, comprehensive assessment for Dominik (who has pretty much all of the sensory difficulties you could describe) and it was worth its weight in gold. Being able to understand why he was so very clumsy and why he did not get dizzy not matter how long he span around for and being able to finally understand why he could not tolerate a noisy shopping centre or swimming pool turned our lives around. I cannot recommend an assessment highly enough. Life will improve exponentially once the sensory issues are unravelled.

For us, having the OT assessment, (and now having a firm understanding of Sensory Processing Disorder), meant that my daughter, who is now 5, experienced a kinder, more understanding and far less demanding mother with much more realistic expectations of what she would be able to tolerate than Dominik ever did. Unlike her older brother, who was literally dragged kicking and screaming sometimes around a busy town centre or into a supermarket, she has never had to experience any of that. I saw the signs in her behaviour as soon as I understood what I was looking at. I was able to guide and explain to her what steps we could take to make things easier before we even attempted an outing somewhere that would be challenging. I had a hat. I had sunglasses. I had lots of juice and snacks. I was prepared for the fact that I may need to carry her so I never planned to buy much on any given trip! Her life was better because of my new found knowledge.

It is easy with hindsight, of course it is, but, once you have the knowledge you must use it and you must not beat yourself up because you didn't know about it before. I am a firm believer in the philosophy that everything happens at the right time and that life unfurls as it is meant to (even if does not feel that way). I apply that philosophy here too. I can wish I had known earlier what made Dominik so very hard to manage, but I didn't. Meh. There is nothing I can do about it now.

Except to say, that now I can rest easy  because once I knew better, I did better. And so will you. J

I am certain that Jo, with her personal, touching and informative presentation tonight has helped many, many families to finally understand some of what is going with those they love and wish they could help so much. This month, Sensory Awareness Month, at The Avenue in Biggleswade, will change people’s lives for the better.

Kudos to you all (as Dominik would say)!

N x