Observation without assumption

Sunday we had a visitor.

Ordinarily this would not be blog worthy material but, I mention it (mostly) because she has been such an important part of our journey (and instrumental in furthering my understanding of my children), and also because she is such an inspirational lady.

Her name is Felicity Evans. Yes, I have mentioned her before here in my blog-life, but she certainly deserves another mention today. Her visits are fleeting and far between due to the fact that she still works full-time at Nature Kids whilst also watching over some of those children who have long since left her care and can no longer even be called children!

I open the door to find her laden with bags (as always)! She has a plethora of outdoor toys (shuttle cocks, hula hoops, bats, balls, boomerangs and more), clothes for Harriet and healthy snacks for all (serving to remind me that I must do better in this regard). She never fails to delight us all upon her arrival. She seems to have an  instinct for what we all want/need and I marvel at her intuition.

A visit from Felicity is valuable for me on so many levels. She 'sees' my children for one! Such a revelation. She also never fails to notice just how intricately I manage my household (reminding me that true professionals make whatever it is they are doing look easy). She delights in mine and my children's idiosyncrasies and allows us all to be completely ourselves.

Let's flash to when she drew up for a moment in order to illustrate this better.

I want to paint a picture of what Dominik was doing, literally, as he watched her pull up in her car.

Background -

His little brother broke his television a couple of months ago so, I put a claim to our insurance company and was given the money to replace it. I did this and I 'upgraded' it while I was at it. It is much bigger and has much better picture quality than his old one did.

The picture quality is where the problem has arisen and Dominik is convinced he should have the new television because 'he cares more about the graphics' and his 'PS4 has the ability to make use of those better graphics and the PS3 doesn't'.

Both of these things are indeed true.

However, Dominik was offered a new television at Christmas which he turned down in favour of the PS4. Fair enough. End of discussion as far as I am concerned.

Fast forward to Sunday.

Dominik begins chasing Hannon around the house screaming and swearing at the top of his voice, that he is going to swap the television for his and that is that. We have already been over this dozens of times at this point and Dominik knows that I am NOT going to change my mind. For once, Hannon is going to have something brand new and excellent all for himself.

So, I open my front door as I run past it (baby in arms) trying to intercept Dominik and free Hannon before it turns violent. I scream "Come in!" as I pass. Dominik now has Hannon cornered in the kitchen where he is cowering under the table. Bugger.

I manage to put myself between them for long enough that Hannon can escape back upstairs to sanctuary.

Felicity has come in and as she enters the kitchen. I introduce her to Harriet. Meanwhile, Dominik is still swearing and shouting at me about the television.

I do my best to empathise and console him (this works most of the time) but to no avail. He drops to the floor and crawls under the table. I try to coax him out with promises of pineapple and strawberries and by encouraging him to smile at Harriet, but he is having none of it today. Oh well. I look at Felicity and she beckons me to leave him be, so I do.

We continue our 'Hello's' and within about 3 minutes Dominik has crawled out from under the table (perhps sensing that it is safe to do so?), with his hand covering his face declaring that he doesn't want to see anyone and just wants to be alone. We watch him go.

Felicity then quietly comments on how calmly I handled the situation and, more importantly, she points out how amazingly quickly and well Dominik handled the situation and was able to self-regulate and calm himself down.

She is right. In recent weeks Dominik has been far more capable of regulating himself on lots of levels (although not all as the incident in the woods evidenced). He no longer eats copious amounts of rubbish food, he steps away from the screen when he needs to, he comes out with us far more regularly (provided it is not too far in the car), he showers when he thinks he needs to (this isn't anywhere near as often as I think he needs to, but, well, it's a start) and he knows what actions to take when he feels himself losing control.

What an amazing achievement! Some people arrive at adulthood, with no special needs whatsoever and can't manage to do that.

Thank you Felicity for helping me consciously observe Dominik.

Thanks for reading and please, if you have any thoughts, please do share them in the comments or by email.

Take good care.

N x

Thinking about Senses.

Tonight, (Monday 6th October 2014)I was lucky enough to attend an excellent presentation about the sensory issues often faced by children on the Autistic Spectrum. It was delivered by Jo Dorasamy (whose blog can be found here: Family Life with ASD ) from The Avenue (whose website can be found here:The Avenue ). A massive congratulations to Jo for doing a great job.

I think that what I enjoyed most about the evening, was the feeling of recognition I experienced when meeting other parents who live within special needs families. (Non-muggles as my very dear friend Emma D would say). Us ‘non-muggle’ parents seem to share a sense of community that goes beyond words and joins us together at a more intuitive, compassionate level.

Just the thought that there other families out there whose houses are strewn with sensory toys, tools and activities is so comforting! I often try to imagine what the insides of other people’s houses must look like when they have children whose needs are not dissimilar to those of my own children. Well, now I know! Pretty much the same if the ‘props’ supplied by Jo and Sarah for the exhibition are anything to go by!

So, just to mention as few of the things that really stood out for me.

The sitting aids – see-saw chairs, fidget pads, weighted blankets, slanted lap tables and the spectacular spinning egg chair.But think about it, if a child needs this much assistance to simply be comfortable, how on Earth can we ever be anything other than in total awe at what they achieve? The things we take for granted as people with neurotypical senses (well, almost in my case) is astounding to me. Imagine if you could not regulate your spatial awareness? Imagine if simply not being able to sit in a chair ruined your ability to concentrate? The amount we ask from these children is massive and they all deserve a pat on the back for not going stark raving loopy more often!

The hearing aids and the visual aids for hyper sensitivities – ear defenders, sunglasses, hats, hoodies, lava lamps, kaleidoscopes and flashing, hand-held lights. Just brilliant! I know from experience that when the world is too loud and too bright and too fast-moving, the little people fall apart extremely quickly. The sensory overload is so massive that their brains simply cannot filter out the ‘small stuff’ as neurotypical brains can. The stress on the child (in all ways - emotional, sensory, psychological, mental) is overwhelming and more often than not a meltdown will follow this sensory overload. Knowing how to lessen the ‘small stuff’ is the key. Paying attention to how your child reacts to these issues will 100% guarantee a happier child and subsequently, a happier family life.

The importance of having a full sensory assessment by a trained Occupational Therapist was also a key theme to the evening. Like Jo, I too paid for a private, comprehensive assessment for Dominik (who has pretty much all of the sensory difficulties you could describe) and it was worth its weight in gold. Being able to understand why he was so very clumsy and why he did not get dizzy not matter how long he span around for and being able to finally understand why he could not tolerate a noisy shopping centre or swimming pool turned our lives around. I cannot recommend an assessment highly enough. Life will improve exponentially once the sensory issues are unravelled.

For us, having the OT assessment, (and now having a firm understanding of Sensory Processing Disorder), meant that my daughter, who is now 5, experienced a kinder, more understanding and far less demanding mother with much more realistic expectations of what she would be able to tolerate than Dominik ever did. Unlike her older brother, who was literally dragged kicking and screaming sometimes around a busy town centre or into a supermarket, she has never had to experience any of that. I saw the signs in her behaviour as soon as I understood what I was looking at. I was able to guide and explain to her what steps we could take to make things easier before we even attempted an outing somewhere that would be challenging. I had a hat. I had sunglasses. I had lots of juice and snacks. I was prepared for the fact that I may need to carry her so I never planned to buy much on any given trip! Her life was better because of my new found knowledge.

It is easy with hindsight, of course it is, but, once you have the knowledge you must use it and you must not beat yourself up because you didn't know about it before. I am a firm believer in the philosophy that everything happens at the right time and that life unfurls as it is meant to (even if does not feel that way). I apply that philosophy here too. I can wish I had known earlier what made Dominik so very hard to manage, but I didn't. Meh. There is nothing I can do about it now.

Except to say, that now I can rest easy  because once I knew better, I did better. And so will you. J

I am certain that Jo, with her personal, touching and informative presentation tonight has helped many, many families to finally understand some of what is going with those they love and wish they could help so much. This month, Sensory Awareness Month, at The Avenue in Biggleswade, will change people’s lives for the better.

Kudos to you all (as Dominik would say)!

N x